Are You Using Your Full Heart’s Capacity?

You know how they say we only use about 10% of our mental capacity?  I think the same must hold true for our heart capacity as well.  My heart is opening, opening, opening, with this new 5D energy flowing into our world and right now I am doing my best to allow myself to utilize more of what must be a HUGE innate capacity to live from a heart centered space.

Based on my work over the past 10 years with the Core Dynamics, I am completely comfortable with the capacity to “feel everything fully.”  I also easily recognize when I am bumping up against some sort of limitation that, until I bump into its edge, I am completely clueless to.  I know I’m on this edge when I feel flooded with emotions and tears flow.  I believe tears always represent a release of resistance and usher in an opening within me.

Easter Sunday was just such a day of emotions, tears and openings for me.  It began with a bike ride where I listened to a recording of Andrew Harvey talking about “Rediscovering the Christ Path.”  It was my second time to listen to this and it continued to stir deep knowings.  The particular section so present for me yesterday was the concept of the marriage of the Divine Feminine with the Divine Masculine within me to birth the Divine Child, the incarnation on this physical planet of myself as Spirit (read more).

It is this way of being, Spirit Incarnate, or “walking Christ’s Path,” that our new 5D energy is supporting.  We can now fully experience the marriage of Heart and Head, of Mysticism and Sacred Activism, of Heaven and Earth, no longer in duality, but in communion.

Not a regular church-goer I attended Easter services with my mom at her church.  My heart soared with the opening bell choir, then continued to fly wide open as the vocal choir’s harmony hit a crescendo. During the first hymn, one familiar to me from my youth, I felt myself as a 6 year old listening to my mother and believing that she sounded like an angel.  I was flooded with love for this beautiful woman I am lucky enough to call my mother.  My heart swelled, tears pricked my eyes, and I continued to breathe deeply reassuring myself that it is possible to be with such a wide open heart, that it’s possible to access a greater percentage of my capacity without being overwhelmed by its bigness.

The sermon was given from the perspective of Mary Magdalene, what it must have been like to watch the teacher/man that she loved be humiliated, tortured and nailed to a cross.  During the description I could feel such deep grief and suffering, knowing from experience just how difficult it is to be with someone you love who is in pain.  The Divine Feminine was very present in this emotion, eyes brimming, deep breathing, feeling fully.

And then came the last song.  Again, one that I knew well from long ago Easter services that asks the question, “You ask me how I know He (I personally define Jesus as ‘Love’) lives?” and answers with, “He (Love) lives within my heart.”  My heart expanding, opening, expanding, opening, and then I saw an older man singing.  He didn’t look anything like my Dad, but there was something in his energy that so reminded me of my Dad, and then my Dad, who transitioned 8 years ago, was there.  He was beside me wrapping his arms around my mom and I, and love was pouring over us.  Okay, I lost it then.  Everyone was walking out and I started sobbing with joy and love and hope and sadness too, letting go of any resistance to opening my Heart as fully as I can today to the Love that is building and expanding on our planet.

This is not about religion, this service just created a portal for me.

  • Are you expanding your ability to feel Love, Joy, Compassion, Hope, and Gratitude at levels that might have once overwhelmed you?

  • Are you opening your eyes to the doors that are opening this Spring for you to birth the Divine Child within you?

  • Are you allowing yourself to expand access to your heart’s huge capacity to embody Heaven on Earth?

I would love to hear your stories about how YOU are shifting into greater and greater access to your heart’s ginormous capacity.

 

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Synchronicity, Harmony, Joy ……… Pain?

As you know, Celeste, for those already within time and space, their lives are usually all about finding love and making money.
Yet not so long ago, while awaiting their first turn, breathing would have been enough.
Hey, Celeste, I vote for breathing, finding love, and making money, in that order.
So much air, so little time –

The Universe

Synchronicity” is the first one of my  “8 Awesome Ways to Know If You’ve Opened Your Channel” to your Higher Self and my Higher Self (HS) has certainly been communicating with me this week. I’ve been licking my wounds over the lack of success of my launch of “How to Be A Conscious Evolutionary – Awakened Seeker’s Journey.”  Not only was it not successful, but the stress of the production and promotion of this product negatively impacted my relationships and my health.

It wasn’t until this past Wednesday when a flurry of synchronicities all came together did I notice my HS was trying to get my attention.  It began with a powerful and deep meditation Wednesday morning that was chock full of contrasts . . . .  that didn’t feel like contrasts.  That is, I was fully present to my emotional pain that felt very heavy while at the same time noticing lightness within me.  This turned into a definite energy field of darkness next to pure white; I listened to the loud noises surrounding me and to the total quietness inside of me;  I felt the moist cool air on my face and the spaciousness of infinity; I lost all sensation of my physical body from the waist down and observed a sharp pain in my back.  In every instance I was aware of the contrasts, yet they felt only like distinctions of experiencing the same thing, a place where “preferences” seemed like a mute point because it didn’t matter, it was all the same. Wow!

Later that afternoon I listened to the message by Steve Rother (below) that centers on stepping fully into this harmonious world, including the harmony and joy (!) of pain.  His message in words contained the essence of my morning experience.  And then Mike Dooley’s wonderful note from The Universe (above) put it all into perspective when I read it late Wednesday evening.

In my coaching practice I often help people feel “the perfection of their situation even when their intellect doesn’t get it.”  As a Conscious Evolutionary I practice the meme of “Crisis is an evolutionary driver that stimulates innovative and creative solutions.”  And in my spiritual practice I forgive people and situations using the meditation, “You owe me nothing.  I owe you every thing.”

No matter what the words are, when you can grow to experience pain

  • as joy
  • as an evolutionary course corrector
  • as the Universe synchronistically and lovingly supporting you
  • as an experience to deepen your sense of oneness with All That Is
  • then you won’t get stuck, you will always be evolving!

 

Practices to see the silver lining while experiencing emotional/mental pain:

  • In your journal, write down every potential ripple effect that your situation might stimulate including those inside of you and those on your environments around you now or in the future.  Dig deep!
  • Think outside the box and brainstorm new solutions to your situation if money (or relationships, location, etc) were not an issue.  Don’t stop until you’ve uncovered at least three (3) ideas or thoughts you’ve never even had before.
  • Center your energy with long slow deep breaths.  In your mind’s eye, see the person or situation that is causing you pain and look at it directly and say, “You owe me nothing.  I owe you everything.”  Notice the insights that move you forward. (See below for an audio experience of this.)
  • The Awakened Seeker’s Journey includes journaling exercises about how crises evolve your path and a recorded meditation about forgiveness that includes the phrase above.  I’m happy to gift you half off your purchase using the discount codepain.”

 

 

 

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A Birthday Gift from My Higher Self

One of my intentions of playing with “youthening” is to completely lose awareness of my age. But, birthdays are still fun to celebrate and this year I received a wonderful gift from my Higher Self.  In a flash I was moved from melancholy to a powerful appreciation for our ability as humans to create in the physical world, and I felt deep in my core, this choice I made to be here NOW!

Soon after I received this gift I heard and downloaded a beautiful musical meditation from the group, Sacred Earth.  It’s called “Shine” and one of the repeated lines is,

Step out from behind the darkness to the Light
‘Cause it is time for you to Shine

I listen to this group during my morning cleansing ritual and get juiced for the day, allowing the question, “What is wanting to emerge from me today? to be present.  Then, I feel inspired to take action, such as making the video above.

What is emerging today from your choice to be physical?




Ideas for Stepping Fully into Your Choice to be Physical:

  • Connect with your physicality daily through movement such as dance, yoga, running/walking/swimming/cycling, strength training, gardening, etc.  Practice loving and appreciating all of the many ways your physicality supports you, saying kind and gentle things to your body.
  • Contemplate or meditate regularly upon the question, “What is emerging from me to share with others in support of the transformation of our world?” Step outside the chatter of your intellect and allow your inner compass of stillness, excitement, joy, curiosity, or passion to guide you into taking inspired action.
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Real Journeys Outside and Inside

Real Journeys. That was the name of the company that took us through Milford Sound, but whose name epitomized the incredible three-week vacation to New Zealand I took with my husband, Larry, to celebrate our 30th wedding anniversary.  Our real journey was filled with seeing beauty that was beyond words, experiencing adrenaline-packed adventures, and relishing the joy and love of being together for this “bucket list” experience. I also underwent a “real journey” inside as well, as I came face-to-face with another layer to this illusion of “powerlessness” that is making itself known to me this year.

When we are lost to the illusions of our deep conditioning we are clueless that we could feel differently and are drawn to certain feelings and behaviors, even when they don’t feel good.  These feelings do, however, feel familiar and there is consistency/safety in that familiarity. When we awaken to our illusions we are still enticed by the familiarity of old feelings and behaviors, but now can recognize just how disconnected and uncomfortable those feelings are.  Thus becomes the spiritual practice of rewiring neural pathways to integrate new behaviors that are more in alignment with our connection to our authentic self, our Higher Self.

What conditioning surfaced for me with this journey was the overwhelming preponderance to anticipate a negative outcome (which boils down to the illusion of powerlessness to create).  Yuck!!! I found I kept feeling huge amounts of free-floating anxiety as I prepared for our trip.  This was a familiar feeling alright.  But now it felt intolerable, not consistent at all with whom I know myself to be, but present none-the-less.  On the morning we were to fly out I worked with my buddy coach, Amy, to find that dimension of myself that exists way beyond this anxiety.  Aaaaahhh, that felt oh so much better.  In this dimension I could feel the pleasure of experience, for experience’ sake, the “is-ness” of life, and the creativeness of being divine spirit playing with the physical. It felt like I was playfully “swimming” in the ocean of all possibility. So “swim” became my touchstone, my anchor for pulling me out of anxiousness and into expansion.

Interestingly, it wasn’t the cycling on unfamiliar roadways, or paragliding high above the city, or crawling through squeeze holes in a cave that provoked anxiety for me.  It was during transitional times (hmmm, interesting in the bigger metaphor, eh?) such as getting to airports on time, finding places to stay, or choosing from among the myriad of advertisements about where we wanted to spend our time and money that provoked my conditioned anxiety about future consequences.  Being aware of this anxiety was the easy part because it was soooooo uncomfortable.  My “practice” became how to shift/rewire this behavior.  I called upon many of the tools that I teach to others, “swimming” until I found the one that worked for each particular situation.  I like having a number of simple resources to call upon to feel the sweet spot of connection, which would bring me to the present moment to then feel ease, peace, and pleasure.

I do love the way my personal, professional and spiritual lives are now so intertwined. This is my “real journey.”  I know I am here to discover many simple resources around living day to day from a connection with my authentic/Higher Self and to share these resources with others.

Simple Tools to Shift from Anxiousness to Connection:

Create an “anchor” that holds the morphic field of connection for you.

o      During a time when you feel completely connected to your Higher Self, notice what word, image, or bodily sensation you most identify with this state of connection.  “Anchor” the word, image, or sensation by telling your Higher Self to return you to this state of connection anytime you invoke this word, image or sensation.  This is how I used the word “swim.”

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Manifesting Delight

I had a fun experience last Sunday that reminded me how easy it is to manifest something I want when I’m not really attached to whether it happens or not.  Such a funny paradox about manifestation, the more you really, really, want something, the less likely you are to allow it to show up in your life, because really, really wanting something is actually the energy of not believing it’s possible to have that thing in your life.

The story I tell you in my video is based on playfully imagining that something could happen and feeling just how much fun that would be if it really did without any expectation that it would, . . . . and then it did.

After I manifested some help, I proceeded to ride my bike.  Waiting in the intense sunlight and heat for yet another stoplight to turn green, I had the thought, “If I could manifest before, why not do it again?”  I  imagined how great it is not to have to stop at a light.  Right after that, I noticed lights were all green for me, but I had to really pick up the pace to get through the light.  So I tweaked my imagining some more and thought how pleasant it is to ride comfortably as lights turn green just when I get to them, allowing me to keep pedaling without stopping.

I was having so much fun noticing how the lights would play with me, laughing at how they would turn green right at the last minute.  Most of the rest of the ride I was able to hold this state of “playing” with the lights.  Several times people I didn’t know honked and waved at me, so I must have been showing the delight on my face as well.

Towards the end of the ride when I was hot and tired, I felt myself shift into “willing” the lights to turn green.  Ahhh, there it was.  Attached to an outcome, and guess what?  Red lights.

It’s a fine line, non-attachment in the midst of desire.  It’s about playing in the field of excitement and joy for the fun of imagination, letting “seriousness” about reality drop away, and jumping whole heartedly into our ability to create our very own illusions which we can then call our reality.  I’m playing with this.  Want to join me?

Integrative Action Steps for your own creative manifestations:

  1. Start with simple things where you absolutely don’t care one way or the other what happens.  Think of it as “building your manifestation muscle.”
  2. Begin imagining your creation using playfulness, delight and fun as your only motivation.
  3. Notice only the synchronicities that show up to support your creation and delight in them, letting go of any seduction to look at what doesn’t happen.
  4. Acknowledge your creations when they show up and express appreciation to the universe/source for support in your co-creation.
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Clean Desk, Create Vacuum, Feel Feminine Power?

I have a personal training client that frequently stimulates me with interesting conversation while we move through her workout.  Last week we ended one workout talking about feeling drawn to creating more intimate female friendships and the shifts in feminine energy we’re experiencing.  Within a day or two of that conversation I received an email about a teleclass on “Feminine Power.”  Hmmm.

The next time this client was in she told me about spending a lot of time in the spring clearing out a particularly nasty weed from her grounds only to find that after our bouts of rain another weed has taken hold of the area.  She reminded me, “Nature abhors a vacuum.”

Then another email arrived with information about the full moon and the astrological implications.  This is a time to look at relationships (to things, people, projects, ways of being) whose structure is ready to change.

These ideas stirred around in me Monday evening as I pulled weeds in my own yard, listened to the audio recording of the Feminine Power teleclass and waited for the full moon to rise.  The teleclass is geared toward the “awakening woman” and discussed the “symptoms” that women are feeling as the energetics of the world shift from a masculine to a more feminine energy.  This isn’t the maternal/healing/nurturing energies associated with the feminine of the past, rather, a brand new, evolving energy that is being cultivated and intuitively co-created through the collective consciousness emerging in the now.

The part that most resonated with me was the image of feeling 10 months pregnant, yet unable to birth what is yearning to come forward because the specifics aren’t yet known.  “So,” says I while pulling weeds, “if Nature abhors a vacuum, then where in my life am I too full, holding on to something that no longer needs me? Where am I ready to change a relationship to something and create a vacuum that will then attract what is wanting to be birthed?”

Wednesday morning a client cancelled, then a workout got canceled and a call rescheduled and it was raining!  All combined to create the time to clean up my desk.  Wallah!  For two years I’ve had papers in various and sundry piles all relating to the writing, production and marketing of my book.  That’s the thing that no longer needs me.  I’m ready to shift my relationship to this book!  With each filing, tossing and clearing away of the pieces of that project I could feel energy returning and a vacuum forming.

My desk is now clearer and more organized than it has been in two years.  I signed up for the teleclass with the intention it midwifes this overdue pregnancy.  And the wonderful thing about doing this consciously, is I have the power to say yea or nay to what comes forward to fill the vacuum; no new weeds, please.

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Integrative Action Steps If You’re Ready to Create a Vacuum for Attraction:

  • Are you sensing a restlessness or yearning in your body/mind, but don’t have the slightest idea why?
  • What person, job, project, environment, or other relationship are you holding on to that no longer serves you?
  • What real or symbolic action can you take that allows you to let go and create the vacuum?
  • Utilize your “feelers” and notice the synchronicities that now show up.  Feel whether you want to welcome the new things, or not, into your life.  You have a choice.
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Focus on Appreciation

Now, this is what I’m talking about!  Last week I wrote about becoming aware of the thoughts you were thinking first thing in the morning.  I love both the excitement and focus on appreciation that Jessica exhibits in this video. When you learn to focus your thoughts, and even more importantly, shift your emotional state to a high vibration, then you set yourself up to create more of the things you want, less of the stuff you don’t want.

One of the exercises in my book, How To Channel Your Higher Self, revolves around using appreciation as a portal to communing with your Higher Self.  Most of the exercises in the book include an audio version that is available in the experiential online environment that comes free with the book.  Here’s my version of opening your day by accessing a state of appreciation.  It’s more in the meditative mode than Jessica’s version, but either way, you shift your inner state of being and set the tone for new possibilities to emerge for you in your day.

Opening to Appreciation

Integrative Action Steps for Shifting Your Energetic State:

  1. Notice the flow of your thoughts and/or feelings.  Are they moving you toward more of what you want or away?
  2. If needed, shift your inner energetic state by focusing on appreciation or your highest excitement.  Words (affirmations) alone don’t make the difference.  You must create an energetic match between your thoughts and your inner state of being.  Jessica definitely lines up her words and feelings!
  3. Notice the resulting flow of your thoughts and/or feelings.
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Amazing Progress

I am so pleased with How To Channel Your Higher Self – it has been the perfect tool for me to connect deeply with more of my whole self! I have especially enjoyed the Emotional Pattern Release exercise, it is easy and effective, with permanent results!

Specifically, I have been using this exercise whenever emotionally uncomfortable sensations arise in me (even during emotionally uncomfortable situations!), and gave myself permission to focus, dissolve, and release them, whether I could name them or not!

I feel so much more confident and fearless!

Thank you Celeste!

Linda Dodrill

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Fear and Resistance can be a Good Thing?

Fear, resistance, shadow side, these energies seem to often show up together.  Try as I might to be an enlightened and evolved soul, they still pop up. Why would my Higher Self attract situations that pull up these unpleasant feelings?

Perhaps my Higher Self doesn’t view these feelings as “negative” or unwanted.  What if from the broader perspective of my HS, these feelings were actually the juice, the fuel, for my moving forward towards something I am wanting?  Hmmm, interesting perspective and one that we recently played with in the Consciousness Playground.

While I was reading a post from another class member I felt a knot rise in my stomach as she described her success at using the exercise we had done in class.  Then others chirped in with their success stories as well and this energy increased.  Since the exercise we did in class was about observing the energy of resistance from a place of pure awareness (based on Quantum Entrainment), I recognized that this knot was the very thing that was being called forth from me to work with in a new way (duh!).

Sensing myself as pure awareness I began to observe this energy, without trying to change it or shift it, just notice it, and what I saw was a very old and familiar energy.  I have worked to remove this energy a number of times, calling it jealousy, envy, competitiveness, judgment, fear of success, fear of failure and those kinds of things.

As I sat noticing this energy, a word became present in my awareness, “begrudge.”  The dictionary defines begrudge as “to envy the pleasure or good fortune of.”  I knew this word captured at some very deep, old, non-verbal, feeling level, a belief that if it had words would be something like, “it’s not fair, why do they have the good stuff and I don’t!”

Yuck!  This revelation surfaced much shame and guilt at seeing my shadow side to feeling oneness.  I was filled with the darkness of recognizing how I unconsciously create my unique illusion of being separate.

The second definition also caught my eye, “to be reluctant to give or allow.”  In begrudging others their good fortune, I was also begrudging my own, that is, this very energy created inner reluctance to allow my own good fortune to manifest.  Certainly, this was not the energetic place from which I want to begin the marketing efforts for officially launching my book!*

It was very uncomfortable to just sit with this nasty pressure in my solar plexus.  “The guys,” a channeled group, say that uncomfortable feelings represent your known world bumping up against the unknown of where you are headed.  Abraham says this discomfort is your indicator that the bigger part of you has already become what you want, and your resistance is the energy you can use to move yourself into alignment with the desired manifestation.  In the CP class, Wendy used the metaphor of standing in a doorway and the resistance is the energy just before stepping through the door.

Recently I listened to Anisa Aven lead a class through her “Vibration Elevation” technique and this seemed like a highly appropriate time to practice this.  It is a combination of the work of Abraham, EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and David Hawkins’ consciousness scale.  Shame, guilt, blame, regret and disappointment, all present for me in that moment, are at the very bottom of consciousness vibration.  And, as you may know, how you vibrate is what you attract!  I certainly don’t want more of this.  Using EFT, this technique walks you up the vibration scale, bringing you to a higher vibration, as you also flip the switches on your conditioning.

Additionally, even as I was using the vibration elevation technique, I was also holding the state of observing myself through the filter of pure awareness.  This background of pure awareness became my “first point” while I moved up the consciousness scale as my “second point” (Matrix Energetics) and these points merged as I felt the conditioning that is NOT me slip away and pure awareness that IS me integrate through my “shadow side.”

So, thank you to my HS who assembled all of these “cooperative components” (Abraham’s words), the right people, experiences and environments, to create this experience. I set down old baggage and moved forward into a “new” me who now senses at an even deeper level how we are all one energy and the abundance of one is the abundance of all.  Today, hearing the success of others generates real excitement for them in me as if it is my own success as well. At the same time, the excitement feels very personal as I experience success through them of the future that I am lining up for myself.

*On Monday, May 10 at 2 and 7pm CDT, I am leading a free teleclass, 2 Simple Practices to Feel Peaceful and Clear when Fear and Uncertainty Surround You. This FREE event is the kick-off to the official launch of  my book, How to Channel Your Higher Self.  Click here for details about the class.

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If I were to believe in ………

“If I were to believe in” has turned out to be a highly useful phrase that I connected with recently in a Matrix Energetics seminar.  It goes something like this, “If I were to believe in this . . . . .  construct, system, way of looking at things, belief ….. it could be helpful in this situation.”

For example:

If I were to believe in muscle checking, then this is a situation that might benefit from my using it.

If I were to believe in EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique), it can now shift this pain.

If I were to believe in using my imagination to create what I want then I can manifest something new in my life.

Get the drift?  It opens the door to utilize all sorts of tools and techniques, allowing the ego-mind to let go of its need to understand how they work.  It’s a “work-around” for the doubting mind, keeping you from getting trapped by thinking there is only one reality/one way/”right way,” to interact with an issue.

Here’s how I used this recently in my own life.  For several months I have been experiencing periods of feeling depressed.  (I wrote about one such time in an earlier blog post.)  I tried a number of things that I know to do to shift feelings and emotions and they would work, but only temporarily.  So, I reached out to my Consciousness Playground community and asked for help.

Paul and Alice stepped forward.  They work as a team.  Paul muscle checks for direction and Alice “sees” into the body then asks for angelic and spirit guides to come forward to assist with the removal of the “gunk” she finds.

My oh my, they found some interesting things:  a long metal spur in my left heel, a cubed block in my solar plexus (this pun apparently intended by the guides), a hot burning poker from an accident in a prior life, among other things.  The Arch Angel Michael even showed up one time to assist.

If I were to believe that Alice sees these energy blocks in me, it could be useful to have her remove them.

If I were to believe that angels and spirit guides are here to help me, I may feel comforted by their energies.

If I were to believe in past lives, then the old wounds from them that are affecting this current life might heal.

Using this phrase allows my mind to let go of questioning whether any of this is “real,” or the “right” process, or the “truth.”  The duality of having to prove something to myself drops away because the phrase is just about opening to the possibility of the construct, not choosing one side or other of the belief, and then new potential states of being can surface.

So, what I notice is that I do feel lighter.  There were some “whispers” of that depressive energy, but those seem to have also disappeared.  If I were to believe in what they did, I would say it worked!

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