Fear and Resistance can be a Good Thing?

Fear, resistance, shadow side, these energies seem to often show up together.  Try as I might to be an enlightened and evolved soul, they still pop up. Why would my Higher Self attract situations that pull up these unpleasant feelings?

Perhaps my Higher Self doesn’t view these feelings as “negative” or unwanted.  What if from the broader perspective of my HS, these feelings were actually the juice, the fuel, for my moving forward towards something I am wanting?  Hmmm, interesting perspective and one that we recently played with in the Consciousness Playground.

While I was reading a post from another class member I felt a knot rise in my stomach as she described her success at using the exercise we had done in class.  Then others chirped in with their success stories as well and this energy increased.  Since the exercise we did in class was about observing the energy of resistance from a place of pure awareness (based on Quantum Entrainment), I recognized that this knot was the very thing that was being called forth from me to work with in a new way (duh!).

Sensing myself as pure awareness I began to observe this energy, without trying to change it or shift it, just notice it, and what I saw was a very old and familiar energy.  I have worked to remove this energy a number of times, calling it jealousy, envy, competitiveness, judgment, fear of success, fear of failure and those kinds of things.

As I sat noticing this energy, a word became present in my awareness, “begrudge.”  The dictionary defines begrudge as “to envy the pleasure or good fortune of.”  I knew this word captured at some very deep, old, non-verbal, feeling level, a belief that if it had words would be something like, “it’s not fair, why do they have the good stuff and I don’t!”

Yuck!  This revelation surfaced much shame and guilt at seeing my shadow side to feeling oneness.  I was filled with the darkness of recognizing how I unconsciously create my unique illusion of being separate.

The second definition also caught my eye, “to be reluctant to give or allow.”  In begrudging others their good fortune, I was also begrudging my own, that is, this very energy created inner reluctance to allow my own good fortune to manifest.  Certainly, this was not the energetic place from which I want to begin the marketing efforts for officially launching my book!*

It was very uncomfortable to just sit with this nasty pressure in my solar plexus.  “The guys,” a channeled group, say that uncomfortable feelings represent your known world bumping up against the unknown of where you are headed.  Abraham says this discomfort is your indicator that the bigger part of you has already become what you want, and your resistance is the energy you can use to move yourself into alignment with the desired manifestation.  In the CP class, Wendy used the metaphor of standing in a doorway and the resistance is the energy just before stepping through the door.

Recently I listened to Anisa Aven lead a class through her “Vibration Elevation” technique and this seemed like a highly appropriate time to practice this.  It is a combination of the work of Abraham, EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and David Hawkins’ consciousness scale.  Shame, guilt, blame, regret and disappointment, all present for me in that moment, are at the very bottom of consciousness vibration.  And, as you may know, how you vibrate is what you attract!  I certainly don’t want more of this.  Using EFT, this technique walks you up the vibration scale, bringing you to a higher vibration, as you also flip the switches on your conditioning.

Additionally, even as I was using the vibration elevation technique, I was also holding the state of observing myself through the filter of pure awareness.  This background of pure awareness became my “first point” while I moved up the consciousness scale as my “second point” (Matrix Energetics) and these points merged as I felt the conditioning that is NOT me slip away and pure awareness that IS me integrate through my “shadow side.”

So, thank you to my HS who assembled all of these “cooperative components” (Abraham’s words), the right people, experiences and environments, to create this experience. I set down old baggage and moved forward into a “new” me who now senses at an even deeper level how we are all one energy and the abundance of one is the abundance of all.  Today, hearing the success of others generates real excitement for them in me as if it is my own success as well. At the same time, the excitement feels very personal as I experience success through them of the future that I am lining up for myself.

*On Monday, May 10 at 2 and 7pm CDT, I am leading a free teleclass, 2 Simple Practices to Feel Peaceful and Clear when Fear and Uncertainty Surround You. This FREE event is the kick-off to the official launch of  my book, How to Channel Your Higher Self.  Click here for details about the class.

Share Button

If I were to believe in ………

“If I were to believe in” has turned out to be a highly useful phrase that I connected with recently in a Matrix Energetics seminar.  It goes something like this, “If I were to believe in this . . . . .  construct, system, way of looking at things, belief ….. it could be helpful in this situation.”

For example:

If I were to believe in muscle checking, then this is a situation that might benefit from my using it.

If I were to believe in EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique), it can now shift this pain.

If I were to believe in using my imagination to create what I want then I can manifest something new in my life.

Get the drift?  It opens the door to utilize all sorts of tools and techniques, allowing the ego-mind to let go of its need to understand how they work.  It’s a “work-around” for the doubting mind, keeping you from getting trapped by thinking there is only one reality/one way/”right way,” to interact with an issue.

Here’s how I used this recently in my own life.  For several months I have been experiencing periods of feeling depressed.  (I wrote about one such time in an earlier blog post.)  I tried a number of things that I know to do to shift feelings and emotions and they would work, but only temporarily.  So, I reached out to my Consciousness Playground community and asked for help.

Paul and Alice stepped forward.  They work as a team.  Paul muscle checks for direction and Alice “sees” into the body then asks for angelic and spirit guides to come forward to assist with the removal of the “gunk” she finds.

My oh my, they found some interesting things:  a long metal spur in my left heel, a cubed block in my solar plexus (this pun apparently intended by the guides), a hot burning poker from an accident in a prior life, among other things.  The Arch Angel Michael even showed up one time to assist.

If I were to believe that Alice sees these energy blocks in me, it could be useful to have her remove them.

If I were to believe that angels and spirit guides are here to help me, I may feel comforted by their energies.

If I were to believe in past lives, then the old wounds from them that are affecting this current life might heal.

Using this phrase allows my mind to let go of questioning whether any of this is “real,” or the “right” process, or the “truth.”  The duality of having to prove something to myself drops away because the phrase is just about opening to the possibility of the construct, not choosing one side or other of the belief, and then new potential states of being can surface.

So, what I notice is that I do feel lighter.  There were some “whispers” of that depressive energy, but those seem to have also disappeared.  If I were to believe in what they did, I would say it worked!

Share Button