How the Trapeze led me to my Zone of Genius
I flew through the air last week. Not particularly with the greatest of ease, but I actually succeeded at transferring to a hand grab and have the video to prove it! This week I’ve been processing what really happened for me on that trapeze. What I conclude is probably different than what you might expect.
My belief is that we create our realities in order to have an experience. I’ve been mulling over this week just what was the experience? What did it mean to me? What was being communicated to me from my Higher Self ?
(My friend, Tricia, and I also jumped out of a plane last fall.)
On the physical front I got really sore, not the day afterward as everyone told me would happen, but two, three, and even four days later my chest, biceps, triceps and abs were screaming! It was physically challenging to hold the bar high just before take off, to hook my legs over the bar, and to curl back up to grab the bar during the practice runs. But, I’ve challenged my body a number of times and this didn’t feel like it was “the experience” I was there to have.
Emotionally, I have a fear of heights, especially when I am standing on the edge of a drop off. Climbing up the ladder, climbing onto the platform and then standing on the edge holding a heavy bar all stimulated wild amounts of adrenaline coursing through my body. Again, I’ve faced down this fear a number of times on ropes courses and so this also didn’t feel like “it.”
Spiritually I didn’t find a connection. I thought I would really enjoy the feeling of flight and feel free like a bird. However, the actuality is that I was so focused on trying to execute the movements as they were being called up to me that I was hardly aware that I was in flight! And, I think this is the insight that I’m looking for.
Every part of my mental energy was focused on getting the movement patterns in place to create the perfect timing in order to perform the final trick. With each practice run I would feel the adrenaline of the physical and emotional challenge, and also that of moving myself forward towards the final goal. I was on assignment!
It’s not that I didn’t have fun, because I did. And the staff at Trapeze Austin was excellent in maintaining a focus on the end goal and moving me toward it with wonderfully positive reinforcement.
What I realize, however, is that I am in my zone of excellence (ala Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap) when I am goal oriented. I stay mentally focused on the goal, using a mentally oriented structure to consistently move forward and I usually achieve success. Nothing wrong with that, except, that I am now more interested in being / living in my zone of genius. I perceive my zone of genius shows up when I am taking action from a place of excitement and passion. I want to be passionately engaged in each moment; not doing things because of where they will take me (or my biz), but because they are exciting, fun and inspire my genius. I want to be/live/work from this feeling place rather than being mentally driven.
The question becomes, how to be/live/work from excitement and passion without creating mental structure and goals about doing so? A funny conundrum!
If you like to play with improving your understanding and interpretation of the guidance you constantly receive (whether you know it or not) from your Higher Self, please join me in Resourcing the Riches of Your Higher Self teleclass beginning on Tuesday, March 23 at 4:00 CT.
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- What is your zone of genius?
- How is it different than your zone of excellence?
Synchronicity Happens
After I wrote about my 2010 focus on the intersection of synchronicity, excitement and multidimensionality I had three synchronous events happen over the weekend that helped to solidify, validate and integrate this desire.
The first was Saturday while I was doing housework and listening to a variety of things on youtube. This video of Bashar popped up (even though it did not meet my search criteria) about what it means to live from a place of excitement and synchronicity. It got me excited!
On Sunday as I was walking in the beautiful crisp sunny morning I listened to my friend Wendy Down lead the Consciousness Playground through an exercise of creating our past. Yes, you read correctly, we created our past. From a quantum physics point of view there is only the present moment and there are just as many probable “pasts” as there are probable “futures.” Lynne McTaggart has done some incredible research around our ability to change the past based on intention (vibration, observation) from the present moment. I worked with shifting this past fall to a place that felt more in alignment with ease and balance. The two strongest vibrations that came forward from this particular past that I was lining up with, centered around designing my website, and moving through the birth of it, with elegance and grace. I’ve often heard these words spoken by Kendall SummerHawk, the “Money and Soul Coach,” but now I have a deep and personal experience of what this actually feels like.
Following directly on the heels of shifting my past, I participated in a holographic delivery of 2010 energy brought through by Reggi Shelley, the Alchemist Energy Practitioner. With over 1100 people on the webinar, she channeled through an amazing energy. The hologram seemed to be wrapped in the violet energy of compassion, transporting in an energy best described as “allowing creation to happen without attachment to what the final creation is to look like.” The focus of 2010, at least through this channel, is to feel for the essence of your desire, letting go of how it might show up. Reggie’s guides specifically mentioned that this energy is distinctly different than 2009, which was focused around bringing up old energies that were ready to be released. Boy did that speak to me on both counts. And, given I had just felt the fullness of a business model founded on “elegance and grace,” I was excited off the charts!
I began my week incredibly jazzed by the synchronous support I received from all of these energy shifts. Now I’m looking forward to this weekend when I get to play in the morphic field of Matrix Energetics. More about that when I write next.
Solstice Sadness Turns Into Wonder and Delight
Today (12/20/09) is the winter solstice and it is an absolutely gorgeous day here in Austin, Tx. It is cool, crisp and sunny, a perfect day. Yet, my heart is feeling heavy, with pressure in my chest and waves of sadness surfacing.
A walk in this beautiful day is the best way for me to allow this energy to talk with me, share with me what is going on. Mostly I just feel sad even as I also feel the gratitude and appreciation for such a stunning day. I reflect on the meaning of the winter solstice, a time for going inward, allowing the deep core self to rest and reflect on the lessons of the past year and the dreams of the coming one.
As I walk through parkland, I allow thoughts of my various spiritual teachers to surface, understanding that each thought is bringing me opportunities to explore new possibilities around this heavy energy. The first teacher to come forward is Soleria Green who opened me to the energetic experience of the collective consciousness in a massive way. To recognize the sadness as part of a collective energy that is shifting allows me the spaciousness to be with it, feel it, acknowledge it, and allow it to flow through me as a wave of energy.
Next came Bashar who teaches there are infinite possibilities of infinite parallel universes open to you in every NOW moment extending both backward into the past and forward into the future. It may be hard to wrap our 3D minds around this concept, but when I let go of having to understand it on a mental level and allow the energetic level of understanding to surface I can experience myself moving into a whole new “universe” where the feelings of the previous moment don’t even exist. I play with this often when I’m walking or cycling, opening to the possibility that each step or stroke can propel me into a new NOW moment.
Then there was Ava Brenner (abinsf@comcast.net) who channels a group she calls, “the guys.” One of the things I learned from the guys was that feelings of inner discomfort were often a flag that my known world is bumping up against my unknown world. As this thought crystallized and came together with Soleira and Bashar, I felt myself step fully into a different state of being, where the heaviness no longer felt so much like sadness, as it now felt like the unknown, the collective unknown of the future. And in my world, the “unknown” is not scary. The unknown is actually exciting and full of infinite possibility. With only one or two more steps I shifted fully into this NOW universe that is full of the wonder and delight of uncertainty, which thanks to the teachings of Tom Stone, feels absolutely tied to the expansiveness of pure awareness.
