Alignment rather than Resolution
It’s easy to get caught up in the collective consciousness of this time of year that is focused on looking back on what didn’t work in the last year and standing in hope that the coming year will be different. However, mostly what happens is the conditioned mind begins it’s litany of the many ways you have failed to live up to the expectations that you think you “should be” doing and makes resolutions from this distorted perception, doomed to failure because of lack of alignment with your Higher Self.
I like to focus instead on “what’s wanting to shift” and allow my Higher Self to present something to me. I keep my eyes, ears, and all of my senses open to receiving this message.
Last year, through a meditation led by Tobias, I dropped doubt like it was an old trench coat that I had been slogging around in for too long. Doubt was heavy and cumbersome, yet I was holding on to it believing I “needed” its usefulness. Doubt and I had been friends for all of my life, and I had tried many different tools, both intellectual and energetic, for eliminating it. Last year this aspect of me was ready to let go of its grip and when I dropped this cloak of doubt, it was truly gone. Freedom surfaced and began to flow. It’s the freedom to dance and play mentally, emotionally and physically. It’s the freedom to play with infinite possibility, yet having nothing to prove, justify, clarify, or even manifest in 3D. I have a feeling that whatever shows up for me this year will continue to intensify this feeling of freedom.
The question to pose to your Higher Self is, “What’s wanting/ready to shift?” Look, listen and feel for the variety of ways your Higher Self communicates with you. The answer might come through what you read, hear, experience, imagine, sense, etc. When you feel ready, then you can constructively use the collective energy of change to swoosh your shift through. Let me know what happens for you. I’ll let you know my experience too.
Solstice Sadness Turns Into Wonder and Delight
Today (12/20/09) is the winter solstice and it is an absolutely gorgeous day here in Austin, Tx. It is cool, crisp and sunny, a perfect day. Yet, my heart is feeling heavy, with pressure in my chest and waves of sadness surfacing.
A walk in this beautiful day is the best way for me to allow this energy to talk with me, share with me what is going on. Mostly I just feel sad even as I also feel the gratitude and appreciation for such a stunning day. I reflect on the meaning of the winter solstice, a time for going inward, allowing the deep core self to rest and reflect on the lessons of the past year and the dreams of the coming one.
As I walk through parkland, I allow thoughts of my various spiritual teachers to surface, understanding that each thought is bringing me opportunities to explore new possibilities around this heavy energy. The first teacher to come forward is Soleria Green who opened me to the energetic experience of the collective consciousness in a massive way. To recognize the sadness as part of a collective energy that is shifting allows me the spaciousness to be with it, feel it, acknowledge it, and allow it to flow through me as a wave of energy.
Next came Bashar who teaches there are infinite possibilities of infinite parallel universes open to you in every NOW moment extending both backward into the past and forward into the future. It may be hard to wrap our 3D minds around this concept, but when I let go of having to understand it on a mental level and allow the energetic level of understanding to surface I can experience myself moving into a whole new “universe” where the feelings of the previous moment don’t even exist. I play with this often when I’m walking or cycling, opening to the possibility that each step or stroke can propel me into a new NOW moment.
Then there was Ava Brenner (abinsf@comcast.net) who channels a group she calls, “the guys.” One of the things I learned from the guys was that feelings of inner discomfort were often a flag that my known world is bumping up against my unknown world. As this thought crystallized and came together with Soleira and Bashar, I felt myself step fully into a different state of being, where the heaviness no longer felt so much like sadness, as it now felt like the unknown, the collective unknown of the future. And in my world, the “unknown” is not scary. The unknown is actually exciting and full of infinite possibility. With only one or two more steps I shifted fully into this NOW universe that is full of the wonder and delight of uncertainty, which thanks to the teachings of Tom Stone, feels absolutely tied to the expansiveness of pure awareness.
Technology as a Spiritual Path – Roger That!
Learning new technology is the spiritual path I’m now walking. It must be, because why else would my computer consistently bring me face to face with my dark side?
I’ve spent years peeling away conditioning, feeling through resistance and self-sabotage, and expanding my consciousness, yet when a highly touted software program is ridiculously difficult to use, I find myself in a big, dark energy field full of helplessness, frustration and blame. I feel angry, full of spit and vinegar when I’m trying to do what I think the program says to do and it doesn’t work, and the user’s guide seems to be in Latin and the 24/7 live chat is off the air. Guidance from my Higher Self at this point is miles away as I sink into the emotional whirlwind of overwhelm and self-pity. Yes, Virginia, you still can access those “darker” energies even when you think you are an awakened being.
In comes “Roger” one Sunday morning. “Roger” was a field of energy that showed up and told me to call him whatever popped into my mind because where he is there are no names; beings are recognized by their unique energy field instead. Communication is all through telepathy and physical form is just something to play with. As I’m learning this from Roger he morphs into several shapes that I can recognize as an image, and several more that I can’t “see,” but can only feel.
Roger is here to help me with all of this new technology. He’s been trying to get my attention, but I’ve been so lost to the frustration, anger, and blame that I couldn’t hear him. Near the end of our “conversation,” we stood back to back (energetically of course) and held hands and then together, he morphed us into a tree. In flooded those wonderful feelings of peace, strength and steadfastness that have eluded me for weeks. Ahhh, now I have a broader perspective. In this moment I can see the opportunities for growth and evolution that are showing up as computer and project issues. Even though I had recognized this potential before, I now received this knowing in a more cellular, deeper way that is not describable with words, but in Landmark vernacular, I really “got it.”
So, have all of my technology issues gone away with my new enlightenment? Not yet, though I have been able to access Roger a couple of times to help smooth the way with a project or two. But, I’ve also gotten lost in frustration, helplessness and judgment, raging at the computer, the programmers and anyone else that seems connected to the problem. I’ve often told my clients that our relationships are our biggest spiritual growth opportunities. Right now, it appears my computer/technology is that relationship for me!
The fun part of this story is Roger. Is he just a figment of my imagination? Is he another aspect of me living out a life in another dimension, time or space? Or is he a guide from the non-physical plane sent to give me assistance?
Do you have “beings” show up like this for you and how do you talk to yourself about who they are? Do tell!
